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The Fault in Our Stars – John Green

Green, John. 2012. The Fault in Our Stars. New York: Dutton Books.

Rating 3,5 stars
(review in Indonesian, click here)

Why I read this in the first place?

This is my first John Green’s. I actually surprised myself because I willingly read this book. It’s against my own reading policy, really. But, here’s the story behind it. I was surfing in Youtube and stumbled upon this video. This girl in the video talks about The Fault in Our Stars. She highly praises it and clearly states that she literally bawled her eyes out while reading the book. And, here’s me, a type of reader who doesn’t find utter attraction into tragic fiction stories, or books that are purposely written to made its readers cry it a river.

A little out of topic, I never really have a solid reason to explain my reading fondness.... I guess, for most part in me, I read as an escape. That’s why I prefer a story with happy-ending. I want to feel happy, so I read books, I want to entertain myself. Well, the world has already given enough tragedy, so why do I want to spare time to read tragic fiction, right? It’s different if it comes to tragic non-fiction. I could easily accept it as a reality or a figment of human history, because I know that reality is not always beautiful but needed to be faced strong-heartedly nonetheless. And that’s why I feel unthrilled to give chance to tragic fiction books.

So, why the heck did I read this insanely famous tearjerker book? Again, the fault is in that Youtube video. The girl says, after reading The Fault in Our Stars, there’s a song came up into his head, it’s Forever and Always by Parachute. Being me, I was more curious to hear that song than to read the book. So I googled the song. (Illegally) downloaded it. Found the lyric too. Listened to it with lyric on screen. Cried my heart out. Listened to it again. Still made me bawled. Listened to it one more time. I STILL EFFING CRIED! Seriously. Until you read this review, I still will cry whenever I hear that song. It’s painfully beautiful and tragic beyond anything. I like that song so much. And somehow it made me felt responsible to also read The Fault in Our Stars, although both (the song and the book) are completely unrelated.

The Fault in Our Stars – John Green

Green, John. 2012. The Fault in Our Stars. New York: Dutton Books.

Rating 3,5 bintang
(review in English, click here)

Kenapa saya baca buku ini?

Buku John Green pertama saya. Saya juga heran kenapa saya mau-mau saja baca buku ini. Ini menyalahi aturan saya sendiri.... Jadi, waktu itu saya lagi nengok-nengok Youtube dan enggak sengaja sampai pada video ini. Dia mengulas The Fault in Our Stars. Komentarnya sangat positif tapi jelas-jelas dia bilang kalau dia menangis sepanjang buku ini. Dan, saya tipe pembaca yang enggak suka baca buku fiksi tragis, atau buku yang memang sengaja dibuat untuk bikin pembaca menangis.

Agak lepas dari topik, dipikir-pikir, sebenarnya saya enggak punya alasan yang solid sih kenapa saya membaca buku.... Sepertinya sebagian besar alasan saya membaca buku adalah sebagai pelarian. Makanya saya lebih suka buku happy-ending. Saya ingin cari senang, makanya saya baca buku. Yah, dunia yang sebenarnya sudah cukup tragis, jadi kenapa juga bahkan dalam dunia buku saya perlu cerita fiksi yang tragis? Kan? Memang beda halnya kalau saya membaca buku non-fiksi yang tragis. Saya bisa dengan mudah menerimanya sebagai kenyataan ataupun potongan sejarah karena memang kenyataan itu enggak selalu indah tapi harus tetap dihadapi dengan tabah. Makanya saya merasa enggak perlu menyediakan waktu untuk menghayati cerita fiksi yang tragis, karena itu toh bukan kenyataan.

Jadi, kenapa juga saya baca buku yang terkenal karena kesuksesannya membikin pembacanya pada menangis ini? Lagi, karena video Youtube yang saya tonton itu. Dia bilang, setelah membaca The Fault in Our Stars, dia terpikir tentang lagu Forever and Always-nya Parachute. Nah, saya malah lebih penasaran sama lagu itu. Jadi saya cari lagu itu. Download. Cari teksnya sekalian. Dengar lagunya sambil lihat teksnya. Nangis sesenggukan. Dengarin ulang. Tetap nangis. Coba dengar ulang lagi. MASIH BIKIN NANGIS! Serius. Sampai tulisan ini diturunkan, saya masih akan menangis kalau dengar lagu itu. Saya suka lagunya walaupun tragisnya enggak ketolongan. Jadi, saya merasa kayak semacam terbeban untuk baca The Fault in Our Stars karena saya begitu mengapresiasi lagu itu, walaupun sebenarnya keduanya (si buku dan si lagu) benar-benar enggak berhubungan.